Life has been pretty unbalanced lately. My brain chemistry; the ups and downs are killing me right now. I haven't been around, I don't plan on being around either. I'm way too busy, plus things just aren't the same. I'm not the same. 4+ years here and I've changed almost entirely. I guess I should've though, right?

I'm counting down the days toward graduation...but I've really been "finished" with high school for a long time, almost since I've started. A University is where I belong, and I'm currently deciding between DePaul, Loyola, University of Illinois at Chicago, and maybe Michigan U. We'll see.





I'm gonna tell you what you need to hear
And I'm a little too late
By three or four years
And it may not make much sense
Now that we are apart
But I'm going to stop pretending
That I didn't break your heart

You see I never thought enough of myself
To realize that losing me could mean
Something like the tears in your eyes
And I want to tell you I'm sorry
And it's too late to start
But I'm going to stop pretending
That I didn't break your heart

And it's Christmas eve
Years down the line
Sitting here wishing I'd treated you better
When you were mine
And i have no way of knowing where you are
But I'm going to stop pretending
That I didn't break your heart

I didn't mean to hurt you
I didn't know what i was doing
But I know what i have done

-Eels